About a week after the last post was published, I had a realization that really kicked my butt to the curb. I wasn't able to draw the way I wanted, and I didn't have many ideas to even put on canvas. It set off something in me, and I've been dealing with some major depression since. I've been trying to brush it off, and instead focus on just gathering inspiration and practicing basics, but in the end, I haven't touched my tablet pen in almost a month.
I think what I need to remember is that it's not the first time this has happened, and I'm certain it won't be the last. Consistency is absolutely key if I want to make a career out of my art, and I get that I'm not doing enough. But I don't know how to do more. I don't have enough original ideas to keep it going for weeks. I know fanart is a decent way to fill the gaps, but then I feel like I'm cheating. Not that it matters, because all the fanart I seem to draw looks like turd scribbles, so I feel more crap about that.
I just don't know how bad I actually want this. My savings is slowly dripping away and I'll need to get a new job soon. Which means my art will be back on the back burner for I don't know how long.
I guess I'll just have to push through it as much as I can while I have time.
I just don't know how bad I actually want this. My savings is slowly dripping away and I'll need to get a new job soon. Which means my art will be back on the back burner for I don't know how long.
I guess I'll just have to push through it as much as I can while I have time.